Love the Little things.

Little eyes,

spectating my face

as I look back into those

that tell a story of His grace

Little cheeks,

blemished from youth

kissing them blindly, 

I see His truth.

Little hands,

 barely able to squeeze mine,

hold my heart with such strength 

loving the One that’s so divine.

Little boy,

that lays silently on my chest

I’ll hold you now...

until He puts my arms to rest.

Lord, Speak through me.

Take these words right off my lips

Catch them with your fingertips

Don’t let them slip away through your hand

Need to be careful where they land

Hold them close to your heart

Let there be a purpose for my lips to part

Speaking with a soul of love and passion

Never allowing the waves to go crashin’...

Hearts and minds pick up a different reading,

Hoping they detect the same greeting...

Whispering softly the truth needing to be heard

Engage your ears to the will of his word.

If nothing else can be done...

Then that’s when you know the wars been won.

Always someone there.

In the darkest days of our hearts

the sun still rises in the sky

even when we feel like giving up

God reminds us to try.

When the world comes crashing upon us

Pushing us to the ground

Heaven reaches down to lift us up

If we can be lost, we can be found.

If there’s a mountain to climb

& we are scared of the fall...

realize whose there to catch us

he’s much bigger than us all.

Time is always passing by

No matter which path we take

Don’t slip away from truth...

We are the choices that we make.

The Enemy... God prevails.

You know what the enemy is telling me today.
He is telling me that it's not fair that I had to give my baby away... that there are so many other unfit parents who have babies who should have given them away so I could raise my own... so the ones less fortunate would have a home and that THOSE babies are the ones that are suppose to be adopted.. not my baby.... 

& I say to him...
Those parents are selfish. They don't want what's best for their child. They don't want their children to be happy in a new home. They will abuse their children and keep having more and never give them to a wonderful home like yours. My child deserves the best and that's what I see for him. So enemy... take your worries and your unfairness with you.. because my baby has an amazing life ahead of him.. and those other poor souls... well.. I wish the best for them and I wish their parents wouldn't be selfish.. but they have freewill. I pray that one day those children find God.. because he will take care of them. 

Jesus is Calling

 I am the risen one who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some man made image. Your relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not resist change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passing away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding your security within Me alone.

It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, each single one presents a unique set of circumstances. DONT TRY TO FORCE-FIT TODAY INTO YESTERDAYS MOLD. Instead, ask me to open your eyes, so you can find all that I have prepared for you in this precious day of life.

..Leap of Faith...

Two Mothers with one purpose.
Our hearts reach out to the one in you.
Two mothers with an unspoken bond.
...Both wanting to see you through.

One Mother carried you for nine months,
feeling you kick and grow,
One Mother planted the seed,
that now one Mother begins to sow.

One Mother gave you hands,
that the other gets to hold.
One Mother gave you a heart,
that the other gets to mould.

One Mother gave you a mouth,
the other one gives it a smile,
One Mother gave you feet,
the other treads with you every mile.

Two Mothers will always love you...
always hold you within their heart,
For it was your very life,
That allowed ours both to start.

THANK YOU JAMIE WARD. YOUR BEAUTIFUL <3

Patience.. Oh how we learn to embrace it.

It's so easy to slip up and make a mistake, making a relationship with God so hard sometimes. It's hard to learn to walk with him when it's a relationship that makes you feel like you keep having to apologize for something. Nobody is perfect. The glory of God can be intimidating... But the love IS worth it. When you embrace him, nothing ever compares to it again.. Making all the apologies worth the relationship... in the end we are rewarded. Time to learn some patience....

SLOW AND STEADY DOESN'T ALWAYS WIN THE RACE, BUT ALLOWS YOU TO CROSS THE FINISH LINE WHILE ENJOYING THE MOMENTS YOU LIVE IN. <3

It always seems to me like the bad stuff happens so quickly. We make a bad choice and are immediately punished for it.. but when we make good choices.. there's no quick reward. (not usually anyways). Since the bad choices are often confronted right away it seems like we deal with them more often, whereas good choices just leave us content and SLOWLY build us up to the people we'd like to be. It's hard to be patient and wait for the good things we do to catch up with us when it feels like the bad can be overwhelming. PATIENCE... God... Please grant me some.

Trimesters change moods... like the seasons change the leaves on trees.

1. Scared, wanting it to be unreal.
What a mess I've made. How did this happen?
JUST GO AWAY.

2. Confused... smiling through tears.
You could stay... You have done such wonders for me.
But.. that's not fair.
Right and Wrong have the same meaning.

3. JOYOUS. A purpose arises.
You saved my soul!!!
I'm giving back to you.
Don't forget me...